I feel so insecure w/o hearing your voice or reading your texts .
Baby, i miss you .
Why cant you see that i only love you ?
Why can't you see that i've let go of the past ?
Why don't you believe me ?
Why don't you trust me ?
I really feel damn hurt now .
Is your love fading for me ?
I know i aint a good girlf ..
But my love for you will never fade .
Why did you say it was drifting ?
I really cant take this blow .
I wanted to talk to you .
I wanted to ask you to wake up and talk to me .
I wanted to ask you if you honestly loved me .
But seeing you so tired breaks my heart ..
I was really looking forward to today ,
but i guess all my hopes of meeting you are smashed .
I cant even meet you tml .
I alrdy can't survive not seeing you for a day or less .
I dontknow how i'm gonna survive this time ..
i dontwanna quarrel like that day ...
my heart hurts alot now ...
i wish you would wake up now ..
i wish you could text me& say, i'm on the way already .
But its impossible .
i know it wont happen .
All i wanted was for you to trust me .
I told you never to doubt me .
You said you won't anymore ..
I'm truly a failure .
I'm always making you cry .
I dontwanna anymore .
I just want you to be happy .
Baby, i miss you soo much , i wish you could see that .
I wish you would ask what nightmare did i have this morning .
You know i dreamt that, cause of one of my ex, you left me ?
I dreamt that, you didn't want to listen to my explanations .
I didn't do anyth, it was the guy all along .
And you didn't believe me or even bother listening to me .
You just threw me aside .
Do you know how scared i am that this will happen ?
I really need you in my life,
Why do you want to leave me ?
I dont understand ...
I dont want this , i dont want anything .
all i want is you .
Why don't you care ?
Sigh,
There're so many times, i was angry .
But i chose to forgive you .
When you took the phone just now,
you didn't even notice i was crying, did you ?
you didn't even ask me why i was crying .
all you did say was, 'wait ah' .
then i held on to the phone for so long ,
believing that you were doing something .
that you will pick up the phone soon and say,
'sorry, i was in the toilet' or something .
but guess what, i turned upp my phone volume .
You fell asleep .
I don't blame you or anything .
I wish i could show you how much my heart hurts right now .
I wish i could show you, how much i miss you .
I wish you could see, how much i need you .
If i continue like this,
No, i won't be broken . I'll be completely destroyed .
You understand, don't you ?
Sigh, i love you boy . Please notice that soon .
Otherwise, i might not be around when you realise that .
Not that i'm leaving you kind of not around .
Its that, i'll die& prove it to you kind of not around .
Hais,
i really hope you wake up soon, i miss you so much