I'm trying hard to trust you boy .
Cause i'm becoming reliant on you already .
I already can't the life w/o "US" .
I really trust you, my trust was going stronger .
So why do i feel it all crumbling down now ?
I really can't take the blow .
Please don't lie to me .
I think i'm thinking too much again ,
so why can't i just stop all these tears ?
why cant i just trust your words ?
It was a mistake to show you this blog .
i'm sorry .
i didn't want you to cry .
i dont want you to worry .
i really dont want you to be hurt when you see me post my feelings .
all i want is you to be happy .
so i dont mind being cheated on, lied to or anything , as long as you were happy .
i admit, i'm a slut, boy .
i dont know why i am .
i just am .
I'm not as good as her .
I can never compare up to her .
Shes so good to you .
I wanna treat you better than her, ofcourse .
a hundred times better .
but i'm really afraid .
seeing those posts that shows she still love you after so long ,
really builds up the fear in me .
i dont wanna lose you .
maybe i was with you rashly .
but after spending so long ,
i've honestly fallen for you .
No guy, would have cried just cause i would cook for them before .
No guy, could make me stay awake and watch them dota .
No guy, could make me wanna take the risk, and spend the night with them .
No guy, made me feel so loved .
I've never regretted my choice, baby .
I don't know if you will , but i won't .
I'll never forget our promise .
Never to say breakup unless one is unfaithful to the other .
I really won't .
But i dontknow if i can believe that you wont ..
i really wanna believe you, boy .
but i'm so, so afraid .
would you forgive me ?
Sigh ,
i hope this nasty feelings go away soon ...
i really dont want anything to happen to us .
i love you boy .
dont doubt me please .
i've forgotten the past . i'll never go back .
i hope you've believed me after i threw away the ring outside your house just now .
i miss you :'( .
Sigh ,