She locked herself in the toilet, bleeding .
She got hurt, again .
Never wanting to ever trust guys again, she got up and wiped her tears .
She stared in the mirror, telling herself that she had to be strong .
She could not let anyone know that she was affected .
She did not want anyone to worry for her .
As she hid her hand in her pocket, she walked out of the toilet, smile plastered on her face .
She left her house, with the usual happy goodbye .
Walking to school alone, she had never felt more lonely in her life .
Holding in her tears, she started getting a headache and sat down to rest .
After a few minutes, she got up and continued her journey .
She sees many happy students .
She could feel that they had no sadness to hide .
They were truly happy .
No one knew how she felt .
Weeping sorrowfully in her heart, she hid everything under her good acting and lies .
She stepped into her class, and immediately, her usual group of sisters surrounded her .
"we saw your facebook, what happened?" .
Smiling, she reassured them that everything was fine .
Seeing that so many people cared for her, she felt a little better .
"maybe i can get through this" she thought .
She managed to avoid questions for the rest of the day .
She felt okay in school .
But once she got home, she started feeling the pain all over again .
Soon, she got to know a new guy .
He knew of what happened, and cared for her a lot .
He told her that he loved her .
She didn't dare to trust him, but she felt her feelings growing for him .
Slowly, he entered her heart and she decided to trust love one last time .
He did not rush her to forget the guy who hurt her .
He did not rush her to be together with him .
He gave her time, when she's ready, then he will ask her to be together .
She was afraid, but her heart longed the love that was brutally snatched away .
She longed for someone to hold her, and kiss away her tears .
Will he be able to do it ?
Only time will tell .
Iloveyou baby :')

I wish you could see that i needed you more as every second passes .
I wish you could see that i miss you even more as minutes passes .
I wish you could see the fear that builds up more and more as each day passes .
I wish you could see how much more weeks i wanted us to last as weeks passes .
I wish you could see how much i want us to be together as time move us towards one year .

Baby, i would never leave you ! nor will i ever do things that let you down . I know you can't trust me right now . But i'm trying hard to trust you as well . You will never see this post i think ? But i needed somewhere to post my feelings where you wouldn't see . So you wouldn't worry .
I really wish you could see that when i said that i couldn't see you for 2 days, i wanted you to say that, i'll meet you on saturday/sunday . But you just said, better than never meet mah . It really hurt me alot . I guess asking to meet more often is just too much to ask for ? It's okay then . I won't ask to meet until you say you wanna meet me okay ? I know i'm a useless girlf . I always make you think too much . I always make you emo and end up you blame yourself . I don't give you that sense of security that i won't leave you . I wish you could feel how i feel :( I never want you to leave me . Cause i wont leave you . I wish you were here to wipe away my tears right now . Sigh, but again, i'm asking for to much .

I want you to know what i mean when i say certain things